Relating back to my last post, it’s hard to pick up after a big race, with nothing but “training” in the forseeable future. Yes, I have goals like finishing a 2:00 half marathon and eventually a marathon. Now, it’s back to keeping myself going because I simply want to improve. And for me, improvement in running is coming along slowly.
I didn’t run today. At first, I had a typical excuse – it was raining and I wanted to go back to bed. I realized as soon as I got to school how much I needed that run – mentally more than physically. I needed the release, and I had planned to spend 4.5 miles on the track, studying for my neuroanatomy quiz in my head. I arrived to my quiz restless and stressed, feeling so unprepared. I couldn’t wait to run after I was done for the day. When I saw the track was being used, I was flexible (my #1 difficulty) and decided to run around town. I didn’t even make it to the end of my street before my calf was screaming at me. Two weeks ago I would have fought for at least a little longer, aching to reach my goal.
While on Sunday I was sure of my little “training plan” I designed for myself, I realized today that my body may need more of a “break” than I’m giving it. This meaning possibly slowing down to let my calf heal. But I’m stubborn and tend to push through pain when I shouldn’t. Can I really let up on running right now, even for a week or two? I have no idea. Physically, I know I have a decent base, and I have a gym I can cross-train at. Mentally, school’s kicking my butt and running is my little escape from it. It refreshes me after a bad day and replaces any self-doubt I have.
Looking ahead, I’ve been searching for races for early 2015. Do I run halfs until I reach 2:00? Will I ever reach 2:00? Do I try for a full? The above quote by Kara really sums it up for me. My calf and lack of direction right now is a bump. But unlike quitting like I did in 2010, I’ll keep moving towards improving myself.
Do you give yourself a break when you need it? Silly question, but this is coming from a “go-go-go” person…